Weird isn't it when we're kids our parents always ask what we want to be when we grow up. Traditionally it's guys saying Cowboys/Astronaughts and girls saying Princesses/Ballarina's. It was all so simple back then. There were a few though that actually were pretty sharp from a young age (or had VERY pushy parents) and knew what they wanted to be, or had a good idea, and they end up doing what they've been looking forward to their whole lives and it works out perfectly.
Me, not so much.
Don't get me wrong, first and foremost I really don't mind my job, on some days I actually like it when it engages my brain. I'm also eternally grateful I'm employed and have been for a long time, I feel secure in my profession and am quite content. However it's nothing what I thought I'd be doing, from childhood through college and even during my stint at Uni (never finished, for a multitude of reasons). It sort of landed in my lap through a frantic flurry of job applying and 7 years later and I'm still there!
The problem is the security has made me lazy. Frankly I should be doing better than what I am, I've sort of drifted through the last couple of years there as when I joined I was fresh faced and eager to work, I did well and got a few 'promotions' of sorts pretty quickly, and was on the right track to go up the corporate ladder. However a couple of poor decisions have led me to really get stuck in my current role, finding it increasingly difficult to get where I really want to go - whilst it didn't help that I didn't even know where I wanted to go for a good year or so, slowing up the whole process. It's a bit frustrating, but it's my own fault so it's a gripe I shall live with and so far in 2012 have been working hard to get out of. After a long slump I'm really pushing myself to hit the heights I've set myself. I need to be optimistic because otherwise, what's the point?
Anyway I digress, my point wasnt to give you a silly insight into my working life, it was more of a sort of tale about how we often end up doing something we'd never have dreamed about previously. I decided from a relatively young age, that whilst I was pretty shit at most subjects in school, I quite enjoyed writing stories, and writing in general.
Quick thing here that I believe in. I think all people have two kinds of intelligence, which I call 'book smart' and 'street smart'. Basically it's quite simple, 'street smart' is more like common sense, how sharp you are, intelligent wit and so on, whilst 'book smart' is like school subjects and how good at tests and stuff you are, basically information retention.
Now me for example, I'm AWFUL at exams, I did shit in school, and I majorly regret not taking a greater interest in things when I was there, I would quite easily say I have no 'book smarts'. However I do believe I possess a bit of general intelligence and common sense, I'm quite sharp, and think I have 'street smart' to a fair degree.
So yeah anyway, as writing doesn't really require 'book smarts' it was actually something I was semi decent at, and enjoyed so decided originally I'd like to be a journalist. I've no idea what actually made me want to be that, I liked the idea of sports journalism. Basically get paid to go watch football then talk endlessly about it. However I realised that after a while it was merely a pipe dream for me. It's a really tough grind as strangely, a load of people find it also an amazing job, so the competition is plenty and it's really quite tricky to stand out. So me being a lazy fuck, packed that idea up.
I really can't remember what the point of this was (this keeps happening when I write these, I'm so sorry for babbling on with this nonsense).
I think lately I've been thinking about getting into writing a bit more. I obviously do some ranting and chatting bollocks on here, and in the past have written some music reviews (including BBC 1Xtra, go me). But I want to get into something, I dunno, a bit meatier. So here's the crux, what I think I MIGHT do, going forwards, is I've had some idea's about writing a TV Script. I know it's merely a pipe dream and nothing will probably come of it as I lack ALL motivation currently (for a multitude of reasons) but it's something I think I might like to try. Last year I got an idea in my head for a small scale TV Show and worked out the basic premise. It's aimed to be a comedy of sorts, and I think I'll write something in a blog about it if anyone is interested, as basically I think I want to use the readers of this blog as a test audience. Running a few minor script idea's or text in a blog post to see if anyone believes it might have legs, or if it's just utter shite!
Yeah so that's it really, I've managed to babble on for ages, hopefully the first part resonates with you a bit, and hopefully you all do something you at least partially enjoy or still are going for what you aspire to do working wise in the long run! And also if you've any interest in what I want I want to write and create (in an ideal world anyway) then I'll post something up soon with a premise and some exerts or whatever.
Thanks for reading, and if it's just me typing to myself at this point whilst you've all nodded off, I both understand and still find this quite therapeutic in writing it! :)
Dan
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